autonomy

 

My days are kind of out of control right now. I’m so used to having a set daily schedule so I’m a little bit out of sorts. But it’s all OK for now. Gearing into the Olympic season. Everyday, I am collecting small victories. For instance, this past week, I learnt how to swim! I can do a couple laps now! Granted, the pool lane is only 25m long, but considering I needed the help of a foam noodles a fortnight ago, this is a big deal! Also, learning NOT TO DROWN is exhausting! My legs and arms are groaning right now. I also try to get 45min of mixed training (mostly aerobics and weights) before bed) so yeah, I hope i don’t get bulky just in time for the summer.

I’ve been rereading Bertrand Russel‘s “History of Western Philosophy” during breakfast (instead of the paper – because it lacks the dreadful staining ink). It’s fun to look at all the WTF notes-to-self I wrote in the margins. Oh, incase anyone’s wondering, i’ve been having a sinful amount of coffee every morning. Who says no to refills?

I finally got my glasses done! I brought my prescription with me in case i come across a pair a like. They are really cute! I might post a photo later~ Um, what else, i got my Bamboo stylus! It gets the job done, so i can’t complain. Though if I did have the guts, I’d splurge on a professional one with precision point instead of the standardized rubber round tip.

I’ve been sampling a variety of beers and wine. I got bored stuck inside the room because I currently don’t have access to a car. I quite like Riesling right now – it’s a bit sweeter so it’s gentler on my palate. Ohhh, and I had Prim’s ice tea. it’s great! So refreshing with a little punch!

I don’t have cable at home, so i’m making the most of the channels here. I’m back to being addicted to Iron Chef America, NatGeo and Animal Planet and whatever channel has Friends on repeat. The first 3 have the most perfect pick up lines “Heart Open, Empty Stomach”, “Follow Your Instincts” and “Surprisingly Human”. GAhhhh…

I’m going order wings and other fast food grub for dinner whilst I watch super fit athletes walking around. until then, it’s I have a couple more revisions to do.

 

 

the capacity for human error

the late Nora Ephron composed this list. I’ve drawn up mine below (with ones stolen from her in italics). I’m not sure why I’ll have to miss things – but it’s cute.

So there.

What I Won’t Miss

sun burn (I knew i forgot something when i went golfing yesterday!)
Bad dinners like the one we went to last night
My closet
smudged lenses
Seasonal flues and allergies
Polls
Fox TV
Mammograms
Dead flowers
The sound of the vacuum cleaner
Bills
Small print
the smell of dust
badly dubbed videos

What I Will Miss

Spring
Fall
Waffles

Bacon
A walk in the park
The idea of a walk in the park
Shakespeare in the Park
The bed
Rereading loved books
Dinner with friends
Paris
Pride and Prejudice
The Christmas tree
Taking a bath

good mornings

PS. Sorry I’ve been AOL lately. So much on my plate – no time to digest. I’ll be travelling a lot this month so updates will be random (but frequent, hopefully – am glaring at my drafts folder right now, oh sigh).

on the wings of anticipation

I’m look at at the MoMA floor maps right now and I’m getting ridiculously pumped for my visit. The pal I’m going to NYC with has been there twice already, so I’ll be a lone rider at the museum. Thinking about it, that’s actually a good thing – I tend to linger in museums. I’m doing research now so I can plan my time wisely. Obviously, I have to go see the Monets, Cezannes, and Picassos (it’s a crime not to).

PS. This is random and completely fangirly – but Benedict Cumberbatch was just at the MoMA. Check this out. Someone on TWOP commented that (I’m paraphrasing here) “If there’s any actor who’d I would expect to visit a museum alone, it’s Benedict.”

An Apple In My Eye

I’m going to New York! It isn’t now and it isn’t soon, but gosh, I am beyond excited about it. Nothing’s been set yet save for the travel to and from tickets- but already I can see the bustling 5th Ave, the freaking MOMA (which I didn’t get to see last time I was there), Brooklyn, the Village, the Central Park Carriage Ride, etc.

It’s gonna be good!

verge

I feel like I’ve been sleep walking this whole week, floaty, airy, etc. In fact, I’ve been so off kilter I think I’ve lost weight (hold on, let me just hop on that scale: well, I still weigh the same).

I’ve always secretly prided myself on knowing what I want to do with my life. And it’s only in recent years that I’ve come to understand that sometimes I don’t know how to go about doing those things. I know this is hardly a startling confession to the wise/mature audience, but it is one that I value. I think it takes some courage to accept that.

I want to write, and so I write. Amateur writers are always told to “write what you know” and to be honest, I know very little. Although I have been very independent for the latter half of my 20 years (without bragging, I’m saying the truth here), I have lived a very sheltered life. I’ve been inside this bubble of predictability and… ordinary-ness.

I was talking to a friend the other day. She’s graduating this spring and she’s going to grad school this fall. When I asked her what her plans are after grad school – she said she didn’t know. She said she just wanted to explore her options and figure out what she’s really passionate about. I love her for saying that, for stating that she doesn’t know where she’s headed but that right now, she’s on a good path. It’s so healthy!

I can say this without fearing the cheese (since she’s ignorant of this blog’s existence) that I really look up to her. She has such a sunny perspective on life and yet it’s got a good dose of practicality. She works so hard (like 3 occupations kind of hard) and she’s saving up for her impending month-long Europe trip. I promised her that if the timing’s right, I’d go with her. But for now, we are going on a weekend trip together this summer. Just the two of us, and we are going to be impulsive and have a blast (just as soon as megabus.com releases those $1 tickets, damn it)!

OK, love-fest over for the moment.

PS. It took me 10 minutes to write this 350 words post. How come papers don’t come so easily!! I’m still doing reflection and analysis, just without the library research!

PPS. Whoa! I dared to be different today and spell-checked: but there were only 3 errors – and they weren’t even legit ones. Like I said at the beginning, it’s a topsy turvy day.

dark gates

opened SHUT

by whispers from whose child

the ring

rings

Never close enough.