how to dispel

I stole the following questionnaire from a BC interview. The answers are mine though.

When were you happiest? 
when I happen upon a revelation

What is your greatest fear? 
to repeat failure

What is your earliest memory? 
dropping an uneaten popsicle outside from childhood home

Which living person do you most admire, and why? 
my Dad, for putting up with me

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? 
Indecision. Mildness in my “external” life

What is the trait you most deplore in others? 
Lying.

What was your most embarrassing moment? 
rather than one dramatic incident, my life has been peppered with smaller, inconsequential moments

What makes you unhappy? 
some people’s inability to accept

What do you most dislike about your appearance? 
my posture. I need to review those dance lessons

What is your guiltiest pleasure? 
no idea

What is your most unappealing habit? 
Hoarding (I must confess I stole this from BC; but only because it’s true!) and insecurity.

What would be your fancy dress costume of choice? 
Something with a mask, i think

What is the worst thing anyone’s ever said to you? 
things that used to hurt but don’t anymore

What was the best kiss of your life? 
secret

Which words or phrases do you most overuse? 
“completely”

What has been your biggest disappointment? 
Not adhering to my own standards

If you could edit your past, what would you change? 
Listen to my gut, even when I was a kid

What is the closest you’ve come to death? 
in my own head

What single thing would improve the quality of your life? 
being on task

What do you consider your greatest achievement? 
staying positive

What keeps you awake at night? 
time

What song would you like played at your funeral? 
at the moment, anything by James Vincent McMorrow

How would you like to be remembered? 
knowing people were loved by me

Tell us a secret 
i wish my body would catch up with my mind.

I channel my childhood self when I… 

The fictional character I most relate to is…

If I had to be outdoors all day I would…

My favorite quality in a man is…

My favorite quality in a woman is…

I’m terrified of…

My dream car is a…

My cocktail of choice is…

My celebrity crush is… duh!

My beauty product of choice is…most days I only manage two things: oil-free moisturizer, and lip balm.

My friends and I like to…eat brunch, preferably with cocktails.

If I could go back in time for one decade it would be…this is tricky! I’d have some fashion answers but really it would have to be a time when women had a lot of autonomy and optimism about what they could do and be. Maybe the 1920s? I’d love to hang out with writers and artists like Anita Loos and Elsa Schiaparelli.

As a teenager I was totally into…movies. I worked at a theater and would watch anything at any hour on TCM and IFC, this is what made me move to Los Angeles in the first place.

I tend to splurge on…my closet! Though I am really coveting a handmade chair at Heath Ceramics right now.

attributive compounds

MUST SHARE THIS. It’s an astonishingly candid interview with the great Jeremy Brett (who I should mention, was gorgeous and talented and thus, very accordingly stolen my unyielding affections. Hey! Another dead old guy to add to my list of obsessions ~ whatdoyaknow?) I believe this interview took place during his last years, when he was addled with both physical and emotional distress – some people believe that’s the reason why his words don’t conceal but reveal, unlike most actors’ speeches.

I’ve seen every one of the 42 ACD stories and I whole hearted agree with the general online consensus that Brett was the authentic Holmes as ACD had written and envisioned him, down to the barking laugh, the persian cigar slipper, the aquiline nose and impeccable wit.

FRIDAY: Hawaiian pizza, mexican fries, juice

SATURDAY: chicken strips, coffee, preserved egg congee, egg and tomatoes with rice

SUNDAY: congee, mango juice, baked salmon, stir-fried broccoli, egg and tomatoes with rice

MONDAY: 2 buttered honey oats bagels with strawberry jam, disguising coffee I made (I only had 1% at home!), chicken strips…

Living In the Cold

For the past 15 hours, I had been under the impression that it’s Sunday.

It’s not. It’s just the first Saturday I didn’t have to be at work. Am I spending this all too precious first of my weekend day productively and happily? I’d give a mild yes. It started me thinking that if I had more time, if I slept less, I’d be able to do and dream and all that comes with doing and dreaming.

I should re-acquaint myself with the rules of punctuation. I should improve my penmanship. I should actually get on that pen-pals thing I’ve been meaning to do since freshmen year. I should send flowers to my mother. I should buy Dad a new wallet. I should read and listen and watch all those items in my “TO-DO” list. I should get a better tank for my fish. I need to “clean out my closet”, both metaphorically (a la Eminem but without the hoes, and literally (hello, spring!).